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圓圓依舊渺無(wú)音訊，她留下的信中似乎是想表達(dá)，她又回了江南。
也許我不需要再擔(dān)心了，在江湖上走了這么久，她應(yīng)該會(huì)照顧好自己。
只是走的這樣的不明不白，我仿佛被冤枉了，想解釋?zhuān)瑓s沒(méi)有機(jī)會(huì)。
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山寨里不少酒，不少肉，唯一少的就是女人。
老乞丐不見(jiàn)了。他說(shuō)去買(mǎi)酒，一去就再也沒(méi)有回來(lái)。
寨子外面人馬來(lái)來(lái)往往，熙熙攘攘的像是鬧市。可是再怎么熱鬧，依舊與世隔絕。
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Wшw ?ttκǎ n ?￠ o 已是四月天，天氣晴朗的時(shí)候，萬(wàn)里無(wú)云，暖風(fēng)陣陣。這古老而原始的叢林，散發(fā)著歷久彌新的氣息，像是翻開(kāi)了古老的卷軸，清樸的味道似曾相識(shí)。
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步出大門(mén)，徑自走向高出的山坡，遠(yuǎn)處渺茫著，層層疊疊，綠色此起彼伏。微風(fēng)撩過(guò)，凌亂的頭發(fā)飄向一側(cè)。霧氣從山谷升騰而起，慢慢卷到了腳下。
感覺(jué)到此刻圓圓就在身邊，仿佛一對(duì)神仙眷侶，踩在云端，俯瞰著這曾經(jīng)腳下踏過(guò)的路，欣賞著絕美的世間風(fēng)景。
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這腳下的蕓蕓眾生、、、
也許圓圓想去云南，正是為了和我過(guò)這樣的生活吧、、、
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近處，遠(yuǎn)處，幾乎每個(gè)山頭上，都有四五個(gè)巡邏的小嘍啰。提著棍棒，嘻哈的來(lái)回的張望。
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他還是他，一點(diǎn)都沒(méi)變。
我已經(jīng)不是我，變得像他的老父親。
身后一聲長(zhǎng)嘯，吼得山谷久久震顫著。
滿(mǎn)是嘆息，滿(mǎn)是惆悵。
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當(dāng)時(shí)是沖動(dòng)么？可是又怎樣回到那個(gè)夜晚，去仔細(xì)思考？
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人在江湖，生不由己。
所做下的事，不需要理由，更不需要解釋。
解釋最大的作用是寬慰自己的心，即便是假的，聽(tīng)了也會(huì)莫名的舒坦。
這就是人的通病。
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他是我的伯樂(lè)。
風(fēng)洛江雪北國(guó)春，北國(guó)風(fēng)光四時(shí)新；
為求明年花香溢，今朝不辭讀書(shū)勤；
天人親點(diǎn)征名將，名將欲求盈雪深；
雪深猶有輕蹄馬，只為城中識(shí)馬人。
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計(jì)通南北，兵無(wú)東西，是為了新的天下，而后為了他的成君之夢(mèng)。
我，
戰(zhàn)功無(wú)數(shù)，一人之下，萬(wàn)人之上。
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“將軍，我們都敗了、、、”
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這么多年不見(jiàn)，將軍也老了。
依舊是方臉，絡(luò)腮胡子。
只是更加的削瘦，胡子也是白花花的。
手上抓的那把震劍，劍鞘都已經(jīng)銹跡斑斑。
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“這么多年不見(jiàn)，你還是沒(méi)變，還是一身的書(shū)生氣！”
他的聲音都顯的蒼老。
在這清秀的山頭，我們就像是躬耕的老者，看著下面，一片片的浮云。
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昨日正在質(zhì)問(wèn)那老乞丐，到底是誰(shuí)救了我，他正在尷尬之際，背后冒出個(gè)熟悉個(gè)聲音：“是我！”
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不錯(cuò)，正是他！
闊別多年，那個(gè)曾經(jīng)對(duì)我恩重如山的將軍！
-------------------李自成！
當(dāng)年正是他在意氣之年，起兵東南，直指中原！
三日下三城，闖王李自成。
大街小巷，兒童唱的歌謠都有他的名字。
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就是他，在我躊躇滿(mǎn)志之時(shí)，拉我上馬，讓我一施才華！
就是為了春秋大夢(mèng)，放棄我的圓圓，隨他北上，不圖榮華，但求青史留名！
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還是他，
闊步入軍帳，軍機(jī)尚未成，
虎眼先識(shí)羊，羊已為人物，情多自言傷。
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卻是我，
執(zhí)扇入京府，領(lǐng)惡做殺戮，
櫻花落雪夜，相逢故人處。
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明，崇禎十七年。
闖王李自成進(jìn)京與明軍駐守山海關(guān)將領(lǐng)吳三桂秘密談判，雙方立場(chǎng)不一，談判不歡而散。
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闖王回到帳中，悶悶不樂(lè)，我為將軍心腹，耳語(yǔ)告知，才曉：
“將軍是看上了吳三桂家的舞女？”
“非也，絕不是舞女。”
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“宗敏，這事就交在你手上，我可是為這事茶不思，飯不想，影響了這進(jìn)京行程。”
“將軍請(qǐng)放心，你只管登基大業(yè)。”
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闖王手下，能人異士皆來(lái)自江湖。我奉命重金尋來(lái)幾個(gè)靠殺人賺錢(qián)的江湖混子。
每個(gè)江湖中的人，不論本事大小，都自封綽號(hào)。
而殺手這稱(chēng)呼，太抬舉這群殺人不見(jiàn)血的魔鬼了。
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只是將軍囑托，自己親口允諾。
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京城的四月，櫻花剛剛開(kāi)到盛季，美的讓人流連往返。
吳三桂的府邸，臨近皇宮，在偏北的一隅。府內(nèi)，幽徑曲通，有花有樹(shù)。
我像只靈巧的燕子，翻起，落下，又消失不見(jiàn)、、、
夜行衣給了我足夠的安全感，我就當(dāng)世人都看不見(jiàn)我，在這黑的如漆的夜里。
身后跟著的，如狼似虎。潛入這安謐的將軍府。
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之后，噩夢(mèng)之源。
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闖王見(jiàn)我一去不復(fù)返，得知我已攜圓圓逃離京都。一面派人尋查我的下落，一面準(zhǔn)備進(jìn)京，舉行登基大業(yè)。
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吳三桂得知此事，大怒之極，怒開(kāi)關(guān)門(mén)，引清軍長(zhǎng)驅(qū)直入。
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武林中，一時(shí)間結(jié)下幾樁仇怨。忘恩負(fù)義之說(shuō)，盛傳于江湖。
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人人得我而誅之，唯有碎尸萬(wàn)段，方能解世人之恨！
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再之后，一切如此。
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“這么多年，你過(guò)的怎么樣？”
將軍老了，說(shuō)話(huà)再也沒(méi)有了以前那么威嚴(yán)，甚至有些遲鈍。
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后來(lái)在不斷的逃亡途中，聽(tīng)說(shuō)李自成進(jìn)京不到百天，便被清軍設(shè)伏，率部逃往西部。
自此，漢人的天下被夷人所占，大明王朝，改姓了愛(ài)新覺(jué)羅。
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“將軍說(shuō)笑了，這么多年，生不如死。”
我凄涼的笑了，笑的柔風(fēng)都繞道離開(kāi)。
世界都被仇恨淹沒(méi)了，有的人放下了，便活在了另一條軌道上。有的人沒(méi)放下，跌落了無(wú)底深淵。
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只是后來(lái)沒(méi)了李自成的任何消息，有傳聞，他被朝廷抓住處死了，還有的說(shuō)他皈依了佛門(mén)。
沒(méi)想到，他在這里占山為王。
看樣子，活的并不快活。
“我在這里生活了有幾年了，這么多年跟著我的弟兄都老了，剩幾個(gè)殘兵，看這里景色不錯(cuò)，且住了下來(lái)。”
“你要是想留下來(lái)，就在我這里湊合著過(guò)吧。”
將軍依舊是那個(gè)性格，能給我的，全都給我。
難道他不記恨我半路擄走了他看上的女人？
不！是他看上了我的女人！這才是錯(cuò)！
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“你不想將我碎尸萬(wàn)段么？”
我像是對(duì)著風(fēng)說(shuō)，對(duì)著自己說(shuō)。
“這么多年了，你不是過(guò)的也不好么！”
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有人曾懷疑過(guò)時(shí)間的力量，知道有一天，他忘記了他人生中最最重要的事，才發(fā)現(xiàn)，時(shí)間真的是可以撫平一切，磨滅一切！
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我覺(jué)得這樣對(duì)將軍不公平，這么多年來(lái)，我給他留下了一個(gè)迷，轉(zhuǎn)眼消失。
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“我給你講講我和圓圓的故事吧、、、”
“她叫圓圓、、、、、、、”
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我不知道身后有沒(méi)有人在聽(tīng)，我好像在自言自語(yǔ)，講著這么多年的故事，講著講著，眼淚就流了下來(lái)，只是，男人的眼淚，從未連成過(guò)線(xiàn)。
自己都不知道，這么多年，就這樣夾帶著一個(gè)心愛(ài)的女人，就這樣過(guò)來(lái)了。
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講到最后都不知道快樂(lè)存在在哪里，仿佛只有痛苦。
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“將軍，假如你看上的是任何一個(gè)比圓圓還漂亮的女人，那該多好，我們都可以活在自己的世界里，夢(mèng)想成真！”
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陽(yáng)光從山腳一路趕來(lái)，驅(qū)趕的晨霧無(wú)處藏身，大小樹(shù)木慢慢露出腦袋，吞吐著這溫柔的光線(xiàn)。
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“那是很冷的山海關(guān)，一身貂裘的她 ，流波婉轉(zhuǎn)，美不可言。我想我可以寧愿為她放棄整個(gè)天下！”
將軍毫無(wú)了昔日鐵馬利刃的暴戾，言語(yǔ)溫柔的可人。
“因?yàn)樗@么多年來(lái)，沒(méi)一個(gè)女人再能給我這種感覺(jué)，你看我現(xiàn)在，這山上可見(jiàn)有一個(gè)女人？”
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到底是誰(shuí)的錯(cuò)？
把三個(gè)人的夢(mèng)拉扯到一起，又朝各個(gè)方向扔了出去、、、扔的遙不可及、、、
“他現(xiàn)在人呢？”
“聽(tīng)說(shuō)也來(lái)到了長(zhǎng)沙城內(nèi)？”
我可以感受到背后有一雙眼睛突然放了光，久違的興奮！
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獨(dú)孤門(mén)圣還在為他賣(mài)命，或者只是同病相連。
這才知道，他們都不殺我，原來(lái)各有目的。
突然有些失望、、、
或許是我想多了。
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“城中在鬧瘟疫，我打算帶她離開(kāi)，不料，卻在前幾天，她獨(dú)自離去了、、、、”
“我在城南尋找，不料被守衛(wèi)所截，后被你和乞丐相救，行到此處。”
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那日，在城門(mén)前，突然飛過(guò)來(lái)的兩支箭，射翻了迎面撲來(lái)兩個(gè)兵衛(wèi)。
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救我的人是他，其實(shí)也有獨(dú)孤門(mén)圣，或者說(shuō)，他們本身就是一伙。
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“城南并沒(méi)有鬧瘟疫，只是有幾個(gè)販藥的商人死在了不知名的藥上，隨后，有人便開(kāi)始謠傳。”
“為什么會(huì)這樣？”
這也是我一直想要弄明的事。
“這是個(gè)陰謀、、、、”
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