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是他。
竟然是他!!!
我還以為他死于亂軍,或者至少是逃離此地。
沒想到,他還在這里,他竟然還在這里。
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最危險,也就最安全。
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眼神在慢慢逼近,迷亂而又深情,憤怒而又懼怕。
店小二把牛肉面放在我面前的時候,竟是被我呆滯的表情嚇住了,是在場的每一個人都被嚇到了。
圓圓復雜而驚詫的表情,似一臉的問號加嘆號。
腳步也在慢慢移動,前進幾步,又再退幾步。想靠近又懼怕的眼睛,透出了憐愛,落魄。
滿頭的亂發,依稀可辨的面龐,清晰可見的棱角。沒錯,是他!
體格龐巨,方臉絡腮,只是胡子長了又長。
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李自成。
他還沒死,也沒逃!
再看圓圓的臉,竟是久違的潮紅。額頭汗涔涔的,像是烏云密布的天空。轉眼就會有一場暴雨。
又是一段難以言明的往事,復雜的情感卷入其中。此事,從無人得知,僅有圓圓口述。后來我皈依佛門后,偶然造訪梵凈山尼姑庵,故人的一封書信,才徹底得知此事。
(梵凈山,靠近湖南省銅仁的武陵山主峰)。
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事來的突然,誰都無法預料,本以為一個吳三桂插足,已是讓我對感情,所有的愛恨有了顛覆,誰知,還有他。
圓圓扯下包裹著頭發,一頭黑瀑傾瀉而下。
李自成的眼睛已經由恐懼變得熾熱,仿佛完全沒有發現我這樣的一個人在這里。
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或許是店小二告的密,或者是他告訴了他的老板,老板見多識廣,通了風。
大街小巷到處貼的都是懸賞捉拿李自成的告示,那日他在客棧露面,登時被人發現,舉報。
兵甲斯時便至。
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我們一路三人同行,到處躲藏,兵甲不斷,又有人發現了陳圓圓也在湖南長沙城中,而且身邊就是李自成,還有我。
一時間,城中捕捉氣氛緊張起來。
一路的奔逃,本以為一切總有個了斷,可是了斷的過程也是身不由己。
假如那日我不再回頭,勒馬去了云南,此間爭斗瓜葛與我好不相干,唯有放不下的圓圓,可我想象著,終能把她忘記,一生孤獨,浪跡天涯,也非壞事。
只是,現在,一切盡不如人愿。
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圓圓此行來這里,也無非尋個安穩。卻無故的隨著到處逃竄。
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有時候,男人辦不到的事,只是女人一句話的事。
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吳三桂喜出望外,又可以見到圓圓了。只是他懷著懷疑的目的,眼神充滿了警惕。
圓圓或許已是麻木了,對每個人都提不起興趣了。
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她這樣做,只是為了救起她過的人,或者愛過著她的人,或許都正在彼此的愛著。可是,這愛,畸形而無法滿足。
吳三桂徹底的老了,老的盡是病態,老的已經有人攙扶,當年那個橫刀立馬,奔走殺敵的一代梟雄,滿頭白發,牙也不剩幾顆,眼神還想威懾住天下,可惜已經無神。
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圓圓也老了,體型偏胖了,脂粉擦的依舊,卻掩飾不住歲月深深的痕跡。
三桂見了,還是一臉的驚喜,渾身顫顫巍巍的,雙手不停的抖著。周圍人急忙的攙扶,他卻撥開了眾人的手。
吳三桂的生命,除了圓圓,已經一無所有。
兒子被殺,天下得到了三分之一,可以命短,已是暮燭之年。
還剩下什么?
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再怎樣掙扎,也逃不過時光,趕不贏命運。
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細想下來,大家都沒有逃過命運。
我們在抗爭著,頑強而又勇敢,執著而又堅信。但卻毫無例外的失敗了。
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被一層層的士兵圍著,只能遠遠的看著圓圓慢慢走近吳三桂,就像是看著羊兒徑自邁向了狼的巢穴。
事實上,這只是李自成的想象,對于吳三桂與與圓圓,我還是了解的,至少,他不會做什么,更不會傷害圓圓,不管她做過什么。
這個女人,從背影上看去,突然像墫鐵塔,就是他左右了三個男人的命運,而她,命運從未屬于過她。這是場穿梭的游戲,穿梭間,滄海桑田。
改變世界的男人,拜她所改變,而她,改變了整個王朝。
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遠遠的我只能看見,她伏在吳三桂的耳邊,靜靜的訴說著,足足幾株香的時間,而吳三桂,默默的立著,一動不動,像是個聽故事的孩子,眼睛里慢慢滾落渾濁的珠子。
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夕陽慢慢劃著弧線,劃過每個人的臉上。吳三桂背對著走回去的身形,疲憊,蕭索,卻是歡快。
圓圓自己一個人,慢慢向背著太陽的深處走去,影子被拉伸了,好長好長,長的從腳看不見了頭。
士兵已是慢慢散去,排著整齊的方陣,兵器相接的聲音,像是風中的銅鈴、、、、、、
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李自成的臉上,恍惚綻開了微笑,映襯的夕陽,像是低下頭的太陽花、、、、、、
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半個月后。
梵凈山多了一位貌美的尼姑。
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繁華盛世慢慢到來。
吳三桂同年病逝,吳軍繼而節節敗退。
清朝大統,人民趨于安康。
坊間傳聞,
貴州,天龍屯堡,天臺山。多了位姓吳的和尚。每日下山化緣,定向北而望,北有武陵山,武陵主峰------梵凈山 。
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不止此山,同在貴州,雷公山,一位姓李的將軍剃度為僧。終日以佛經為伴。
長燈古卷,吃齋念佛。
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師父說的沒錯,
一世江湖半生逃,半生歲月渡長蒿。
少林寺的大師也沒說錯,
尋尋覓覓,得得索索,
世無所得,所得即所失,得來可失去,失去再難得。
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劍,九斤半,不曾重有一分。
拔出來,刻上師父二字。投入谷底。
叩了幾拜,
生,再無此人。
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云臺山,六根不凈。
在此處安家,只有一個人看管著一處寺廟。
深山老林,安于長珠古佛。佛門向北。
只是偶爾,還有武當的山風吹過夢里。
還有,江南煙雨,阡陌上那深深淺淺的腳印、、、、、、
-----------------------本書完。
謝謝賞臉。
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后記:
文中有一些未解的問題,會在隨后的作品中一一解釋。尤其是陳圓圓與李自成的故事。更精彩的故事,只要你關注,咱就有。